I am engaged! AHHHH this is supposed to be one of the most exciting moments of my life, and I am over here freaking out. Let's start with the fun stuff, the proposal.
I was in bleached stained, faded scrubs, with two day old hair, and smelling like the rear end of a dog. I walk through the door, to the smell of dinner. Now, after a very long day at work, I am more than thrilled not to have to cook dinner. There were also flowers on the table, how sweet is he, he bought flowers. Then I see that the table is set, he is wearing nice clothes, and a bottle of wine is open. I thought I was missing an anniversary or something very important, what is going on here? Taylor, the sweet man he is, sits me down and then gets down on one knee. I start panicking, like we do not have a puppy, we just started living together, are we ready for this? I am pretty sure somewhere in there he told me to stop talking, and proceeded in asking me to be his wife. The first thing I ask, "Do my parents know?" He laughs reassuring me that they do, and then I say "YES!"
That is when the panic sets in. I am not a crier, I am more anxiety oriented. I immediately call my best friends who both scream. They are thrilled, but I am still shaking. Like is this real life? I want to remember this moment for the rest of my life, I do not want to forget a detail! Again, hardcore panic.
So, YEA I'm engaged. What's next? Oh yea, you have to call every person you have ever known, and repeat the story like 500 times. By the end I was making my very special proposal sound horrible, I felt like a broken record, and my cheeks hurt from smiling. I am emotionally exhausted at this point. However, I think I only got about 2 hours of sleep that night. I questioned everything! Does he really want to be stuck with me? Do I want to be with him for, forever? Will we work? When I wake up where do I start?
Well, needless to say this will be a series of blog pots on what comes next, and how to make it through the roller coaster of emotions that come with planning a wedding. As a wedding planner, planning my own wedding. I intend to break it all down for you. This will be a very honest portrayal of my own wedding. I hope you enjoy and stay tuned!